As soon as I finished saying it, it was like deja vu, but it's not...
( Well, at least the first emotion slipping in is just him being frustrated with himself. Lips tuck into one cheek for a second or two while he tries to figure out how to explain the way he's rationalizing it. )
The difference is, you can do that. You can deal with your shit and still manage to... I don't know, get up every day and keep...
( Fuck, he doesn't know the word he's even looking for. Living? Being useful, being helpful, being productive. )
I can't. I mean, seriously, it's... It was pretty pathetic, man, trust me. When my mom died, I don't think I left my apartment for anything but class for like a year. I just, like, checked out. I don't wanna do that again, not in a place that's anything like what I was living with before. If something happens to one of you two that I could've done something about, or... I don't know. But it's not New Amsterdam, it's Crater Lake all over again.
( This is probably the most he's ever said about either topic, so that's definitely something. Even if he sounds like he's steadily getting a little more agitated with himself. )
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( He sighs, self-deprecating and frustrated. )
As soon as I finished saying it, it was like deja vu, but it's not...
( Well, at least the first emotion slipping in is just him being frustrated with himself. Lips tuck into one cheek for a second or two while he tries to figure out how to explain the way he's rationalizing it. )
The difference is, you can do that. You can deal with your shit and still manage to... I don't know, get up every day and keep...
( Fuck, he doesn't know the word he's even looking for. Living? Being useful, being helpful, being productive. )
I can't. I mean, seriously, it's... It was pretty pathetic, man, trust me. When my mom died, I don't think I left my apartment for anything but class for like a year. I just, like, checked out. I don't wanna do that again, not in a place that's anything like what I was living with before. If something happens to one of you two that I could've done something about, or... I don't know. But it's not New Amsterdam, it's Crater Lake all over again.
( This is probably the most he's ever said about either topic, so that's definitely something. Even if he sounds like he's steadily getting a little more agitated with himself. )