But goddamnit, it's Natasha, and he's not ashamed to admit that he cried his damn eyes out over the news of her the second he was alone to let that grief sink deep into him and grow roots he will feel for the rest of his life.
In his nightmares, Riley falls. But sometimes it's Natasha instead. He catches neither. And neither leaves behind anything to be laid to rest. ]
you know I'll tell you if you ask, just not here. it's all complicated.
[ And he won't tell her the things that Bucky doesn't even know about yet. Sam's just going to keep the doors a little more shut on a lot of those fresher hurts and aches. ]
no subject
But not saying something ain't the same as lying.
But goddamnit, it's Natasha, and he's not ashamed to admit that he cried his damn eyes out over the news of her the second he was alone to let that grief sink deep into him and grow roots he will feel for the rest of his life.
In his nightmares, Riley falls. But sometimes it's Natasha instead. He catches neither. And neither leaves behind anything to be laid to rest. ]
you know I'll tell you if you ask, just not here. it's all complicated.
[ And he won't tell her the things that Bucky doesn't even know about yet. Sam's just going to keep the doors a little more shut on a lot of those fresher hurts and aches. ]