righteously: (¹⁵ Aᴡ ʙᴜᴛ sʜᴇ ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀɴʏ ᴡᴀʏ)
ᴛʜᴇ ʀɪɢʜᴛᴇᴏᴜs ᴍᴀɴ ( ᴊᴇɴɴɪғᴇʀ ᴀɴᴋʟᴇs ) ([personal profile] righteously) wrote in [community profile] raianet 2021-08-09 07:55 pm (UTC)

( There's a lot going on here. New Amsterdam is one thing, reconciling that with the quick detour back home, but first there's this. First there's--

First there's this.

There's too much he wants to say at once, which drives him to a rare point of speechlessness. Anger and fear and sadness and relief all jockeying for position, clawing at his throat and shining over his eyes. Clutching at his heart like a tidal wave; he almost can't breathe under the weight of it.

When he moves again it might almost seem like he's going for another punch. It's not that. It's an embrace, still silent, with arms winding around Castiel's shoulders and fingers digging into his clothes in desperate bunches. Hanging on like a vice, like it's the only thing keeping Cas on the goddamn planet.

Maybe this should have been his first clue they were out of sync -- the touch doesn't summon up any empathy bond. No New Amsterdam facilitated emotion swapping. It's not even a blip on his radar right now, though.
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