( Times like this, Ian's standard Processing Intense News demeanor comes in handy. There's not much of a visual reaction as Lance talks. No pity, no shock, no sudden discomfort, just that same patient calm. Internally, his feeling is a little more like: holy fuck, man. This is more insight than he's gotten on Lance maybe ever, including that pretty deep conversation they had in Ian's kitchen a few weeks back. It's deeply personal, deeply real, and... all of a sudden it's pretty clear Ian would be a total fucking asshole to be withholding whenever Lance decided to flip things and push him.
Damn it.
A year and a half of just trying to make it to the next day, and then getting fucking beat to death. )
To be honest, man, it's really fucking impressive that you've been thriving as well as you have been. A lot of people would break down over something that heavy. I get why you'd wanna shove it down so hard, it's gonna be something you can't really work through in a day, or a month, or like a year. And unless another guy with a doctorate or three shows up, you're kind of stuck professionally advising yourself, which even I know is a terrible idea.
( Ian wasn't an abused child. He may have been a pretty severe case of the 80s-90s latch-key phase, he may have had a pretty impactful feeling of neglect, but he can't even begin to imagine what it was like for Lance.
What he can relate to uncomfortably excessively is the dread and trauma of reverting back to a struggle every day just to survive mindset. He can feel that one down to the bone. )
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Damn it.
A year and a half of just trying to make it to the next day, and then getting fucking beat to death. )
To be honest, man, it's really fucking impressive that you've been thriving as well as you have been. A lot of people would break down over something that heavy. I get why you'd wanna shove it down so hard, it's gonna be something you can't really work through in a day, or a month, or like a year. And unless another guy with a doctorate or three shows up, you're kind of stuck professionally advising yourself, which even I know is a terrible idea.
( Ian wasn't an abused child. He may have been a pretty severe case of the 80s-90s latch-key phase, he may have had a pretty impactful feeling of neglect, but he can't even begin to imagine what it was like for Lance.
What he can relate to uncomfortably excessively is the dread and trauma of reverting back to a struggle every day just to survive mindset. He can feel that one down to the bone. )